I debated on whether to write about this or not, but it is to wonderful NOT to tell the story..
When we picked out Kelsey’s casket (yes I HATE saying that) we picked out
this beautiful white one with Angels on each corner. I didn’t realize at the time that the angels came off the casket.
Remember, Kelsey passed in the winter so we weren’t able to bury her until the spring. On April 16, 2010, we buried her, but while we were standing at her grave, Clint (the best funeral director in the world), asked me who I wanted to have the angels from each corner of the casket. I said, Courtney, my Mamma, the best mother-in-law and Ronnie and I.
My mother-in-law keeps her’s on display in her house, Courtney has her in Grand Rapids, and I have mine displayed in Kelsey’s room.
Before mamma passed, we went through boxes and boxes of stuff that mamma had and there were 2 items we could not find. One was a Christmas tree item that was my mammas dad (a pipe) and the other was the angel from Kelsey’s casket. I told daddy that I would like Courtney to have all 4 of the angels some day. But we could NOT find the one I gave to mamma.
Now keep in mind. My mamma had Alzheimer’s. We found some of her possessions in junk drawers. For example, I found her extra set of false teeth in the garage in a little wooden box within a box that had a LOT of junk stuff in it. We found diamond rings and other valuable things among, lets just say, not so valuable stuff.
Now there was so much stuff to go through, my mamma was a mild hoarder God bless her. We kept some stuff and the other stuff we sent to Good Will. There were boxes among boxes among boxes of stuff to go through. We went through each box like a fins tooth comb. But, no angel.
I told daddy that it was ok if we didn’t find it, but I still wanted the set of 4 angels for Courtney some day.
It has been almost a year since mamma passed and well over a year since we have gone through all those boxes in the garage and house. Still no angel.
This past Tuesday, daddy had a doctors appointment in Petoskey for an ultrasound on his leg. We left early so we had some time before his appointment. I took him to the Killwins Chocolate store, he had never seen them make the chocolate, prior to his appointment. After the tour we still had time left so we went to goodwill. Daddy went to look at the men’s cloths and I had, I hate to say it, go to the bathroom. As I was approaching the bathroom, another lady went in before me. (Yes I was a little upset as I had to really go) As I was waiting, I looked at the stuff on the shelf next to the bathroom. There, all by its self, on a shelf was an angel.
I have seen angles before that were similar to this angel but I knew that if it WAS the angel that came from the casket, it had to have these metal bolts on the back that kept it secure on the casket.
It was like slow motion as I reached for this angel. As I picked it up, I began to realize it was the angel I had been looking for. It was heavy and as I turned it around, there were the metal bolts on the back. I about had a heart attack as I realized, this was the angel. BUT, was it the angel from Kelsey’s casket that I had been searching for????
Remember, I have been looking this 4th angel for years. I still have boxes at mammas to go through, but I have given up hope of finding the 4th angel or the pipe Christmas ornament.
Of course I purchased the angel, a whole $2.99. When I got home I went and looked at the angel I had from Kelsey’s casket and this one was the same one, EXCEPT the bottom stamp of the company that made it was much smaller than the one I had.
So, I had Courtney text me a picture of the bottom of her angel. Her’s matched mine. I then had Ronnie go over to his moms house and text me a picture of the bottom of his moms angel and it matched Courtney’s and the one I have.
Conclusion: This angel I purchased is from the same casket company, and probably the same white casket, but it isn’t from Kelsey’s casket.
Here is what I believe. I believe that Jesus put that angel, in that goodwill, so that I would find it.
Let’s think about it….. What are the chances of finding an angel, from the casket of your child, that you have been looking for, for a couple years, so that your daughters twin sister can some day have the complete set of 4 angels? WHAT ARE THE CHANCES????
Only Jesus can make this happen. No one can tell me any different.
I don’t know if we will ever find that Christmas ornament or the 4th angel. What I do know, is that I wanted the 4th angel and Jesus gave me that 4th angel.
I don’t know about you, but I get chills every time I tell the story.
Here is one more kicker to the story. You all know that blue birds/blue jays are one of my signs from God that everything will be ok. As daddy and I were going into Petoskey we went down by the water. As we were driving, all of a sudden a blue bird flew by. Yes, it is true.
It amazes me how God works in our life. The closer I get to him the more signs He sends letting me know that everything is going to be ok. Kelsey, Mamma, Annie, and everyone I love are safe in his arms in Heaven.
Heaven!!! Home!!! Where I will be some day.
So, isn’t God the best? Isn’t he the best father? My heart just bursts knowing that I will be with him and everyone I love some day.
I pray that you have that relationship with Him. I pray that we all go Home (Heaven) someday. Please, if you do not have that relationship with Him, talk to him now. It is never to late. Ask him to come into your heart.