So, you know in the Bible where Jesus is in the desert waiting to be arrested and he asks God to spare him from what is about to happen? God's answer to him is no as we know because Jesus is nailed to the cross for our sins.
I just got it. As dumb as I might be, but every night I ask God to PLEASE take me. Spare me from what is happening to me and has happened. God's answer to me is NO just like it was to Jesus that day.
Jesus finally says, "Thy will be done". He accepts what his father (God) has planned.
I really don't like the NO answer as I know that in Heaven I will have so much peace like my Kelsey does. But I know God wants, needs me here to continue with his message.
I type this and I honestly believe this whole hearted, but I know, like Jesus (but not as bad as Jesus) it isn't easy. As long as I have God though and turn to him and try not to be "Human" I can do it. Not to say I won't have my ups and downs. but
"I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13.